Experience:Alprazolam + alcohol (6mg, oral)

Substance(s): alprazolam and alcohol

Dose: 6mg, nicotine and alcohol dosage unclear

Route of Administration: Oral

Age: 17

Sex: Male

Height: 173cm / 5'8

Weight: 52kg / 114lbs

Date: 10/2026

Background

Due to the dosage my memories of the experience might be impaired. This was my second time doing any kind of benzodiazepines, the first being only a day earlier, having taken 1mg of alprazolam. The pills I took have (or atleast are supposed to) include 1mg of alprazolam (ksalol). Having heard of the addiction possibilities of benzos I was quite disgusted myself with taking them, though I had had experiences with abusing methylphenidate. Contradictorily, I had been fantasizing about taking benzos or something similar for the past week, and as a dealer whom I had bought weed many times from before had got their hands on it I decided to buy half a sheet of ksalol, which in total was 7 pills. I think this whole ordeal happened mostly because I really expected to benzos to make me feel like I'm drunk, which I guess they do not.

Report

T+ ~17:40 - Unhappy with the effects of yesterday's only single milligram of the substance, I decided today I will take double the amount. I was planning on taking it later, but was informed that I would be home alone so I popped two ksalols at this time. Almost immediately after taking them I was uncontrollably shaking. I presume this was because I was frightened about taking too much, etc. I was attempting to roll a cigarette but was very much unable to do so.

T+ ~18:20 - I remember at this point practicing some songs I have to play for a small gig on the guitar, as a way to try to calm myself down. I was playing standing up, and recall starting to stumble across some junk on my bedroom floor as I was playing and decided that's enough. I do not recall what I did after this.

T+ ~18:40 - Knowing the time of the peak of alprazolam is supposed to be around one hour, and yet feeling similarly dissapointed by how insignificant the effects were compared to what I had read, I decided to take a third pill. Soon after, I asked my mother if I may finish the rest of the wine she had in the fridge and was granted permission. I do not know what my thought process was to think it was a good idea. I ended up spilling half of the wine but I did notice as when crouching down to wipe it off the floor that I did after all feel very wonky. Frustrated by the fact good wine just went to waste, I decided to steal an unclear bit of some other white wine that we had. I am not sure how much in total I drank, since after this event I started taking quite big sips of it whenever.

T+ ~19:30 - At about this point in time I decided to go to for a cig in the park nearby my house. For whatever reason, I took one more pill with me to go. I remember feeling that my way of walking is very atypical, so I ended up walking in a very robotic way. Once I made it to the park I was searching for my lighter. I had forgotten it at home apparently, so very mildy frustrated by it took the ksalol stuffed in my pocket. After, I went home and just decided to smoke on the balcony. I also remember being scared that someone is home as I saw the living room lights and TV on, but now that I think about it I might had put them on myself but forgotten. Once I came back from the balcony I brewed myself some coffee to not fall asleep, since I was starting to get incredibly drowsy at this point.

T+ ~20:30 - At this point my memory is starting to get hazy, and honestly there is not much to say. I remember often going back to the wine bottle, but the 'main attraction' was when I hopped on to a discord call. My speech was very slurred, and at this point I was practically nodding. I put on my face cam to humiliate myself to my friends for whatever reason, and part of that was finishing the rest of the sheet, 2 pills. After that, I doubt I spoke a single word aloud. I did end up texting some other online friends for a while, but looking back my writings were very unclear.

What happened after these things is a mystery to me. It is possible I blacked out, but I did end up waking in my bed. My room was also in a somewhat strange order. Now when writing this I feel irritated by this experience, since this whole thing was obviously a waste of resources. I woke up feeling as if I was still high, and in total I think I slept close to 13 hours. I've got to say I'm very surprised how inclined I was to redosing.