Experience: 550mg DPH - My First Time on DPH

I was inspired to try this drug after reading Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. I loved the way that the lines between reality and fantasy were completely blurred. So I bought a 200 pill bottle of dye-free, 25mg, CVS-brand Diphenhydramine. I knew that I should wait until I was with my trip-sitter to try it for the first time but I was too excited. So I decided to start with a small dose of 150mg. Below is my report in real time as I took this fascinating drug.

4:41pm: Just took 150mg of diphenhydramine HCL. This is my first time trying it so I wanted to be sure and start slow. I’ll be trying my best to keep from falling asleep. I’ll check back at 5pm and every thirty minutes after. Wish me luck.

5:30pm: Alright, so it’s been almost an hour. I can still type just fine. I feel very odd. Still not sure it it’s a placebo or if the drugs are actually causing it. I think auditory hallucinations are starting. I kept hearing the text tone from my phone. But that’s happened to me in the past so I’m not reading much into it yet. The main thing is I’m very very tired. Gonna watch Hunger Games to try and stay up. Love you all, I’ll check back at 6pm. Also I’m having some trouble typing. I think it may be starting to kick in.

6:00pm: All the effects appear to have ceased. I guess I took far too little. I’m taking 100 more mg. I’ll let you know how it goes. I’ll check back at 6:30pm or until something mildly interesting happens.

6:30pm: Definitely starting to feel some effects. My skin feel very very warm and I got a feeling that I’m really unable to describe. The best way would be to describe it as shocks of electricity starting at one of my extremeties and moving their way toward my head. It wasn’t altogether unpleasant. Almost euphoric. Only in a different way. A way that makes it hard to tell if it feel good or not.

6:43pm: Okay so now it’s starting to hit me. The indescribable feeling is more intense now. I feel like I saw my hand turn red out of the corner of my eye but when I looked at it it was a normal color. Gonna go pee now because I may not be able to later. Wait the urge went away. I’ll try anyway. I had no trouble peeing. My legs and arms are very heavy. When I see my leg under the blanket it moves on its own and I forget it’s a leg. Much less my leg. Started watching Alice in Wonderland (the latest one). Hopefully it doesn’t aggravate any hallucinations I might have. I feel almost drunk. Very different, but still impaired.

7:05: Something interesting happened while I was outside smoking (cigarettes) but I can't remember what. I made a point to write it down too. I’ll let you know if it comes back to me. Also very mild hallucinations: I keep seeing things underlined in red. The red goes away when I look directly at it. Also feelings like there are bugs crawling on my skin under my clothes. When I tried to brush them off they disappear. Indescribable feeling is in my legs now. I’ll keep you updated.

7:18pm: Still not getting what was I was hoping to get. Took 100 more mg. Listening to Black Sun. What a pretty song. Still really sleepy but I think I can manage. Also have a fast heartbeat and mild trembling. Still really hot.

7:25pm: So this is interesting. I actually feel like I’m mildly tripping. It’s getting very hard to focus. Also my right ear feels like it’s leaking.

7:37pm: Keep forgetting things right after I think them. I had more to say but I can’t remember. Ironic.

7:42pm: It’s getting really dark in here. Except not really dark. It just feels really dark. Like somebody dimmed my eyeballs.

7:56pm: Still no trouble peeing. I feel like the effects are wearing off. I loved the feeling but I was really looking forward to hallucinating. I’ll make another entry if anything interesting happens.

8:16pm: Don’t know how people say this drug isn’t fun. This gets me higher than weed. Still no hallucinations. I’m upset.

8:22pm: Very short memory. I’ll be watching my movie and listening to conversations and then realize I don’t remember what they were talking about. Getting difficult to read.

8:47pm: Just took 100mg. That’ll be my last try. Next time I’ll try a lot more next time.

9:01: Definitely starting to lose my motor skills. I keep accidentally clicking things on my trackpad. Still able to type just fine though.

9:17: So far the most annoying thing is forgetting what I’m doing or what I was just thinking. It almost happened while I was getting ready to type this but OMG hallucinations finally. I see smoke trailing up out of my laptop. It’s weird though it doesn’t rise it just wiggles around. My hand is moving. Just forgot what I was going to say afterwards. Damn it I’m back to normal. Definitely taking more next time.

9:23: just started thinking about scars. No idea how it came up.

9:27: The ceiling light just talked to me. Started dreaming with my eyes completely open. It felt like a daydream but I didn’t have control. Now the shadows from the ceiling fan are growing. One of them is almost to the wall. Hallucinations are getting more intricate. The shadow from one of the fan blades is completely solid, 3d, and its jerking like a guy on Tourette’s. Daydreaming a lot. I don’t remember closing my eyes but for some reason I feel like they did.

9:39pm: I know I said last time was my last time but I really want to see more hallucinations. Preferably something more interesting than a fan quivering or a visible breeze visible in my mirror.

9:48pm: Just taking more—(Infuriating. I keep forgetting the ends of my sentences. Just taking more what?? I’m never going to figure out what I was trying to say. I don’t remember a bit of it. ) Anyway just took another 100mg. Hopefully that’ll be enough for the night. More¬¬—. Just happened again. More WHAT???

9:57pm: Auditory hallucinationss. Heard my dad and my sister and my mother talking outside when there was no one there but me and my sister.. My dad asked where I was and my sister came and got me. I think. It’s already getting fuzzy. The auditory hallucinations were freaky. I was afraid my dad would notice that I’m on something. My hands feel weird. The paper on the screen feels like a hole. I’m afraid to put my hand inside.

10:08: I can’t hold onto any thoughts. It’s making recording my experiences very difficult. Heartbeat is racing.

10:10pm: It’s been a lot of fun, I’ve learned a lot, but it’s time to go to sleep as my parents are coming home soon and I’m not terribly coherent.

Afterthoughts:

4:47pm Following Day: After I tried to go to sleep (It took me a long time) I had continuous hallucinations of my sister and parents coming into my room and talking to me, asking me questions. I could barely understand them and I knew that I had to reply or they would know that something was wrong. But I would just sit there silently hoping they would go away. On the few occasions that I actually tried to answer (it just came out as mumbling) they would disappear and my room would snap back into reality. Truly an intense experience.

Even at a dose as low is the one I took, I highly reccomend having a sitter. This drug WILL make you both paranoid and afraid at times. It's just the nature of the drug. Having a sitter really helps to calm you down.

Submitted by Caleb.rhea

• Auditory hallucination - "I think auditory hallucinations are starting."
• Sedation - "The main thing is I’m very very tired." "Still really sleepy but I think I can manage."
• Motor control loss - "Also I’m having some trouble typing." "Definitely starting to lose my motor skills. I keep accidentally clicking things on my trackpad."
• Spontaneous tactile sensations - "The best way would be to describe it as shocks of electricity starting at one of my extremeties and moving their way toward my head. It wasn’t altogether unpleasant. Almost euphoric. Only in a different way. A way that makes it hard to tell if it feel good or not."
• Perception of bodily heaviness - "My legs and arms are very heavy."
• "When I see my leg under the blanket it moves on its own and I forget it’s a leg. Much less my leg."
• External hallucination - "Also very mild hallucinations: I keep seeing things underlined in red. The red goes away when I look directly at it." "Now the shadows from the ceiling fan are growing. One of them is almost to the wall. Hallucinations are getting more intricate. The shadow from one of the fan blades is completely solid, 3d, and its jerking like a guy on Tourette’s."
• Tactile hallucination - "Also feelings like there are bugs crawling on my skin under my clothes."
• Abnormal heartbeat - "Also have a fast heartbeat" "Heartbeat is racing."
• Tactile hallucination - "Also my right ear feels like it’s leaking."
• Auditory hallucination - "The ceiling light just talked to me." "Auditory hallucinationss. Heard my dad and my sister and my mother talking outside when there was no one there but me and my sister."
• Paranoia - "This drug WILL make you both paranoid and afraid at times."
• Memory suppression - "Keep forgetting things right after I think them. I had more to say but I can’t remember." "Very short memory. I’ll be watching my movie and listening to conversations and then realize I don’t remember what they were talking about." "So far the most annoying thing is forgetting what I’m doing or what I was just thinking." "I can’t hold onto any thoughts."
• Visual haze - "I see smoke trailing up out of my laptop. It’s weird though it doesn’t rise it just wiggles around."
• Visual acuity suppression - "It’s getting really dark in here. Except not really dark. It just feels really dark. Like somebody dimmed my eyeballs."
• External hallucination and language suppression - I had continuous hallucinations of my sister and parents coming into my room and talking to me, asking me questions. I could barely understand them and I knew that I had to reply or they would know that something was wrong. But I would just sit there silently hoping they would go away. On the few occasions that I actually tried to answer (it just came out as mumbling) they would disappear and my room would snap back into reality."