Experience:170mg 4-AcO-DMT - Recklessness rewarded

I take 300mg Wellbutrin (an SNRI) and 10mg escitalopram (an SSRI) daily.

I initially took 50mg 4-AcO-DMT (orally) with 30mg temazepam (a benzodiazepine) to help prevent my natural tendency toward anxiety from souring my trip. I also ate some candied ginger to combat nausea and vasoconstriction I get from 4-AcO-DMT.

I spent a few hours having a relatively typical trip -- enjoying music and the substance's visuals intensely, feeling happy, bonding with my cat, and spreading some positivity to people online. After maybe 5 hours I noticed I was coming down, so I (quite recklessly) decided to keep it going. I downed another 120mg 4-AcO-DMT with 30mg temazepam.

I didn't quite notice the come up on the second dose, and I was absorbed in a video of someone playing bass (the visual distortions almost seemed to make the neck of the bass stretch to infinity, and to give the player extra arms, though not literally of course). After that had happened, it felt like it hit me all at once.

The euphoria and feelings of love/connectedness spiked, and the visuals intensified massively. A cobweb in the ceiling corner seemed to duplicate into a diamond-shaped network. The window pane next to me became a three-dimensional space. Eventually, I began seeing visuals on the flat, featureless ceiling -- shapes (blobby shapes, sometimes English letters) spilling outward from the point my vision was focused on, then later an almost fractal inward spiral of line-based symbols with lots of right angles (nothing like a recognizable language, though). Other visual patterns emerged, but they all centered on the point I was focusing.

Feelings of love, connectedness, forgiveness, apology, and overall ecstasy coursed through my mind and body. At one point I spent a short time with my eyes closed and covered, struggling to keep under control and fight the urge to thrash around and shout. When that ended, I felt a more soothing euphoria and began moaning (almost purring) with every exhale.

After this, I spent what seemed like the majority of the trip limp with my eyes closed. The CEVs were incredibly colorful and created a wide variety of patterns and shapes, many of which were not centered on one point but rather seemed to be moving in a particular direction. My thoughts raced out of my control, never settling on any one concept or memory for more than a split second. I almost dissociated from my body, only "noticing" it as I used it; essentially becoming a disembodied pair of lungs in the colorful, psychedelic void.

Probably the most important thing to say about this is that it was the most intense, extended period of physical and mental euphoria I'd ever experienced before in my life. Nothing else had ever even remotely approached it.

I spent the whole of the day afterward resting and sleeping, as I was very very worn out. I had a headache that came and went, but it was not too bad.

Overall while I know it was reckless to take 170mg of a novel/untested psychedelic like this, it worked out incredibly well, and I'm very glad it happened.

• Unity and interconnectedness
• Empathy, love, and sociability enhancement
• Increased music appreciation
• Cognitive euphoria
• Physical euphoria
• Runny nose
• Vasoconstriction
• Nausea
• Colour tinting - On the initial lower dose, a green tint was present.
• Colour shifting
• Drifting
• Symetrical texture repetition
• Recursion
• Internal hallucinations
• Conceptual thinking
• Thought disorganization
• Thought acceleration
• Changes in felt bodily form - As I was limp and sort of slumped over, it felt as if my body was compressing or melting at some points.