Experience: 500 mg Ketamine (Insufflated) - A Nauseating Voyage Through Parallel Universes

In the beginning, I was starting to feel numb in my whole body. Tactile sensations were largely dulled, except for the sensation of the wetness of my insufflation straw. My nose was running and I was gently blowing my nose. I was trying not to blow out any of the ketamine, but I had to do something, because otherwise I couldn't have continued snorting it. For the final two lines, I had trouble lining up the straw with the lines. My depth perception was nil, so it was quite difficult to insufflate them. Eventually I finished all the ketamine though. Sometime during the insufflation I put a red little cough sweet in my mouth in an attempt to mitigate the horrible, repulsive taste of ketamine. I spit it out on my desk though because I was paranoid and didn't want to risk choking on anything. At some point I tossed it in the trash can.

At one point during the trip, I heard this "divine" voice. I'm calling it divine because it sounded really reverberated and as if it were coming from every direction. In reality, it was actually my little sister standing outside my locked door asking if I would like to have my dinner now. I somehow managed to answer "no," and continued to trip balls. Throughout the experience I heard my family eating in the kitchen, the silverware clanging against the porcelain, their indistinct chattering and my mother laughing.

At one point I was getting out of my chair, getting into bed, and tucking myself in. It felt like the way my body was moving was predetermined and completely out of my control. It was like the subconscious motions that I carried out every night when going to bed were laid out in front of me and shown systematically. The movements also felt strangely mechanical, as in they felt very exaggerated and precise. After a while I must've gotten out of bed and back into my chair. These movements were also experienced in the same way, including me trying to make my bed.

I had written this message on a piece of paper as a way to ground myself. This was a very good idea. The paper had the time of ingestion on it. I was wearing my watch, so I could compare the time on my watch with the time on the paper and approximate how much time had passed. The whole thing lasted a lot longer than I expected. It was difficult reading the sign at times, I had to close one of my eyes and focus hard to read it. So, another thing I did to try grounding myself was to adjust the arm rests of my chair. Doing this wasn't easy because it felt like my limbs had fallen asleep.

Sadly, I didn't experience any holes, spaces, voids, or structures, which is really what I wanted out of the experience (visual disconnection). I did, however, experience this nauseating effect of having the real world (the version with the grounding paper) receding away from me. It felt like I was being transported between different parallel universes. These universes were all more or less the same. I was always being brought to my room, with my family eating in the kitchen. It was the exact same time. Something set them apart though, I could tell I wasn't home. It felt like I was being brought to different places each time. I wasn't allowed to stay in one place for very long though. I was losing my grasp of myself more and more with all the traveling. Eventually I think my sense of self completely dissolved.

Around 30 minutes in I must have managed to gain enough control of my body to grab the computer mouse and pause the music I was listening to. It was paused at 25:57. I also remember pressing the button which rolls up my blinds, and this was evident after the experience because the button was attached to a boom arm which I had accidentally moved when pressing it.

At around 45 minutes in I was salivating and throwing up into my trash can. This marked the beginning of the comedown. After 1 hour I started to feel very grounded, my head was a lot clearer, and I was certain that this was the end of the experience, that I was returning home. I was left lethargic and exhausted afterwards, it took me over an hour to get up from my chair. In the afterglow, I was experiencing immense, unfortunately short-lived, gratitude for things that I normally deemed inconvenient, such as being alive, having the family I have, and living at home. Walking around the house felt really weird. It felt like my body was made of cotton, but my feet were made out of bricks.

Submitted by IJUSTPOPPEDAXAN

• Acuity suppression - "It was difficult reading the sign at times, I had to close one of my eyes and focus hard to read it."
• Auditory distortion - "At one point during the trip, I heard this 'divine' voice. I'm calling it divine because it sounded really reverberated and as if it were coming from every direction."
• Cognitive disconnection - "I was losing my grasp of myself more and more with all the traveling. Eventually I think my sense of self completely dissolved."
• Depersonalization - "I was losing my grasp of myself more and more with all the traveling. Eventually my sense of self completely dissolved."
• Derealization - "I did, however, experience this nauseating effect of having the real world (the version with the grounding paper) receding away from me."
• Dizziness - "I did, however, experience this nauseating effect of having the real world (the version with the grounding paper) receding away from me."
• Double vision - "It was difficult reading the sign at times, I had to close one of my eyes and focus hard to read it."
• Increased salivation - "At around 45 minutes in I was salivating and throwing up into my trash can."
• Motor control loss - "...it felt like my limbs had fallen asleep."
• Nausea - "At around 45 minutes in I was salivating and throwing up into my trash can."
• Perception of bodily lightness - "Walking around the house felt really weird. It felt like my body was made of cotton, but my feet were made out of bricks."
• Perspective distortion - "For the final two lines, I had trouble lining up the straw with the lines. My depth perception was nil, so it was quite difficult to insufflate them."
• Physical autonomy - "At one point I was getting out of my chair, getting into bed, and tucking myself in. It felt like the way my body was moving was predetermined and completely out of my control. It was like the subconscious motions that I carried out every night when going to bed were laid out in front of me and shown systematically. The movements also felt strangely mechanical, as in they were sharp and precise. After a while I must've gotten out of bed and back into my chair. These movements were also experienced in the same way, including me trying to make my bed."
• Physical disconnection - "At one point I was getting out of my chair, getting into bed, and tucking myself in. It felt like the way my body was moving was predetermined and completely out of my control. It was like the subconscious motions that I carried out every night when going to bed were laid out in front of me and shown systematically. The movements also felt strangely mechanical, as in they felt very exaggerated and precise. After a while I must've gotten out of bed and back into my chair. These movements were also experienced in the same way, including me trying to make my bed."
• Sedation - "I was left lethargic and exhausted afterwards, it took me over an hour to get up from my chair."
• Spirituality enhancement - "In the afterglow, I was experiencing immense, unfortunately short-lived, gratitude for things that I normally deemed inconvenient, such as being alive, having the family I have, and living at home."
• Tactile suppression - "In the beginning, I was starting to feel numb in my whole body."
• Time distortion - "The whole thing lasted a lot longer than I expected."